Maybe my wish came true...

So yesterday I said something about wanting to hole up for a few days with the help of electricity in this ice overtaken state we're in....

Last night, I got the call from my boss, "We're closed tomorrow, don't come to work!!" I say, Yeah, a four day weekend, maybe I can get some stuff done!

So today, I was totally lazy, soaking up lots and lots of time online just in case the power went out, and when Tay fell asleep, I thought, I better get some cleaning done. Got the house swept and mopped(all hardwood and tile), it's quite a job!

Tonight at dinner, the phone rings, caller id gives it all away!! It's the boss again, "Ronda, We're closed again tomorrow!!" Woo HOO!! A five day weekend!! So tomorrow, Tay gets to take her dressing off and hopefully try to straighten out her leg completely. So I'm praying that she is able to go to school on Thursday, cause this little miracle isn't going to last the whole week, lol!!

So I'm very grateful for the ice considering, because it allowed me to stay home with Tay while she recovers and not get dinged for missing work. We have played rummy til I'm sick of rummy, (being a rummy lover, I didn't know that could happen). She's quite the little card player and has kicked my butt a few times the last few days! So far, so good, on the power staying on, just praying we make it through the night tonight, staying warm, and the uphill battle may have been won!! Hope you are all staying warm right now!!

Surgery Update

Taylor had her surgery this morning, and everything went smooth for the most part. He removed the two masses which he now thinks are overly sized lymph nodes, but doesn't know why they were 2x their normal size. He completely removed both of them and sent them off to the pathologist and we will get the results when we go back to see him next week. He was afraid that they were masses growing off of the bone or the muscle, which wouldn't be good, but they weren't so....chocolate cake, remember!!

So we are home, and she's doing really good, better than I expected. No school for a few days, and with the ice coming, maybe we will get to hole up for a few days and relax(one can dream, right?) So again, thank you for all of the prayers, well wishes and thoughts. I hope this is all the start of a turn in the right direction for us!!

Thank You, Thank YOU!!

I woke up this morning, feeling more than overwhelmed and very frustrated with life, because 1. Tay's surgery is tomorrow. 2. I'm very discouraged and feel almost hopeless at this point with all the negatives and misfortunes going on in my life that I feel is a losing battle every day... Nonetheless, we go to church, because that's where we our fed and it makes me feel better and Tay too. It is good for her and she loves it.

Last week, our pastor and so many people that I couldn't see them all prayed for Tay and it was amazing. So this morning, I know that I looked blank and numb because I was, and people came up and asked how Tay was doing, and what the outcomes are, and what is going on with her? Half of these people don't even really know us. And still they showed that they cared and several asked what time her surgery is tomorrow so that they can all be praying. All I could say was thank you, because inside I was dying and didn't see an end in sight and can't for the life of me figure out how to give it all to HIM, no matter how hard I may try. So many of you touched me this morning and I greatly appreciate it, no matter how much it looked as though no one was in there. Even my mom asked me, Are you ok? As she is waving her hands in front of my face and repeating herself and my usual response, I just nod my head, and say uh huh. Because this is hard to admit too, but I feel blank and numb and I have felt that I was losing a battle within myself and to those around me. Last week, when everyone was praying, a very kind soul said to me, God told me that he was going to send someone to me with a heavy heart, I looked at him, and said, He's right, it is very heavy and I'm trying, I'm trying. But....

During church, he(the kind soul) walks by and just pats me on the shoulder, just to remind me that someone out there understands or is thinking of me, and that means so much.

After church in my stupor, we go get a few things from Wally World and even though I have no money, I mean, like not enough to live on for the next week, I see someone who needs it way more than I, and this is not bragging at all, but this story has to be shared. So I give what I can, and say God Bless You! Tay and I pray for this man and go on our way, hoping that somehow I have made a difference. Also, at church, Victor preached on this exact topic, what we can do to help and do our part. AMAZING!!

So just an hour ago, I get the most amazing news, that I have received since before Nov 10, when I lost my job, etc, etc. I am getting a huge amount of money back on my taxes and when I say huge, I mean huge, like enough to pay off all my credit cards, pay off everything except my house and car, and still have money in the BANK!! As I sit here crying and thanking GOD, this just goes to show that there is light at the end of the tunnel!! When you have nothing left to give and you do it anyway, and less than an hour later, you are blessed with enough to live on for months, it's more than a BLESSING!! It's a MIRACLE!! So thank you, THANK YOU for all of you who have prayed and taken your time to pray for us! You will never know how much it means!!

Blobs of Chocolate Cake I say...

As you all know, we have been seeing to many dr's to keep count lately. I so wasn't ready for the surgery thing, but they forced me to make a decision and I can't put it off any longer. Taylor is having surgery next Monday, the 26th, on her posterior right knee. They are going to do an ultrasound-guided biopsy/excision of the 2 masses in the back of her knee. So you my homies, I love you all like a fat kid loves cake, but we need some extra prayers right now, to know that everything will go well and most importantly, get good results, that these masses are NOTHING! NOTHING, I say, the biopsy results could come back with blobs of chocolate cake and that would suit me just fine! Really, I have to make light of everything going on in our life, or I will go nutso!

Update on Taylor

Today Tay saw a general surgeon, we'll call him Doctor A, and he examined her and palpated her posterior knee, she does have obvious masses to the right and none on the left. He did say, "I zo nat dink it dis cancer." As I am dancing around going yeah, that's reassuring! Then WHAT is it?

That my dear, is da million dollar question. So we wait, he says, to see if they get bigger, smaller and do another ultrasound in 2 weeks to see their progress. He doesn't want to do an MRI because of her age, and doesn't want her exposed to any more "rays" than necessary.

So if they do get bigger or do not shrink, he wants to do a ultrasound guided biopsy. I shant think not. But we'll see. I'm speaking against that at this point, yall will join me in that parade, won't ya?

So Monday, she is going to Doctor B, and we'll just see what he says.....mmm, k??

I know, I know....

I know, I know, I have been way lacking in my bloggy abilities lately. But for those who care, I have a new job that keeps me away from the house 12 hours a day, 4 days a week. That means, that the other 3 days, I have to do all the laundry, clean house, grocery shopping, run the kiddo around here, there and yonder, and it just doesn't leave time for much else. LOL So on the days that I do work, nothing, I mean nada, gets done, except for the necessities! And those barely get done, for crying out loud.

Guess I'll have to skip the whole Christmas post....and start fresh.

Satan has decided that he's trying to get uber friendly with me and my family, and frankly, I DON'T LIKE IT!! DO you hear me? I don't! And YOU will not win! Do I need to say it again? Cuz I will! The last few weeks, he has been atacking in more ways than one. I admit, I let it get me down and now I'm mad and fighting back.

The most important thing that is going on is with Taylor, my baby. Last week, she was complaining of pain to her posterior knee. I admit, I blew it off to leg cramps, growing pains, Charley horses, you know the drill. With a mom that's a nurse, if your breathing and not gushing blood from a major artery, all other things seem miniscule.

After her basketball game last week, she was complaining even more, so I decided to investigate further. Wow, did I feel bad? The back of her knee was swollen, hot and red. Classic signs of a blood clot. Yeah, way to go nursey mom! You totally screwed this one up. So I threw her in the car and away we go. Shall I even mention that our wonderful hospital did nothing? Yes, virtually nothing, might as well have kept her at home for all they did. Sent her home with ABX, and she'll be fine. Well, she wasn't fine then and she isn't fine now. I took her to her PCP on Monday, be it mother's intuition. Luckily her doctor did an ultrasound and labs. Wow, would you guess that there's 2 cysts(masses) growing in the back of her right knee. Trying not to panic, her dr. scheduled an appt with a surgeon. I want to take that ultrasound report and throw it in the ER doctor's face. HA, you fool!! There is something wrong, you idiot, we're not hypochrondiacs like everyone else you see.

Ok, so enough of that, we have an appt tomorrow and Monday, so please pray, wish, hope, whatever it is that you peeps do these days. I'm all for it, mmm, k! I just pray that my baby is ok, and that we do NOT have to go through anymore surgeries as she has already had 4 in 6 years. I'll try to do better in my bloggy world abilities and keep you all posted. Thanks again in advance for any prayers for my baby girl.