Sunday, January 25, 2009

Thank You, Thank YOU!!

I woke up this morning, feeling more than overwhelmed and very frustrated with life, because 1. Tay's surgery is tomorrow. 2. I'm very discouraged and feel almost hopeless at this point with all the negatives and misfortunes going on in my life that I feel is a losing battle every day... Nonetheless, we go to church, because that's where we our fed and it makes me feel better and Tay too. It is good for her and she loves it.

Last week, our pastor and so many people that I couldn't see them all prayed for Tay and it was amazing. So this morning, I know that I looked blank and numb because I was, and people came up and asked how Tay was doing, and what the outcomes are, and what is going on with her? Half of these people don't even really know us. And still they showed that they cared and several asked what time her surgery is tomorrow so that they can all be praying. All I could say was thank you, because inside I was dying and didn't see an end in sight and can't for the life of me figure out how to give it all to HIM, no matter how hard I may try. So many of you touched me this morning and I greatly appreciate it, no matter how much it looked as though no one was in there. Even my mom asked me, Are you ok? As she is waving her hands in front of my face and repeating herself and my usual response, I just nod my head, and say uh huh. Because this is hard to admit too, but I feel blank and numb and I have felt that I was losing a battle within myself and to those around me. Last week, when everyone was praying, a very kind soul said to me, God told me that he was going to send someone to me with a heavy heart, I looked at him, and said, He's right, it is very heavy and I'm trying, I'm trying. But....

During church, he(the kind soul) walks by and just pats me on the shoulder, just to remind me that someone out there understands or is thinking of me, and that means so much.

After church in my stupor, we go get a few things from Wally World and even though I have no money, I mean, like not enough to live on for the next week, I see someone who needs it way more than I, and this is not bragging at all, but this story has to be shared. So I give what I can, and say God Bless You! Tay and I pray for this man and go on our way, hoping that somehow I have made a difference. Also, at church, Victor preached on this exact topic, what we can do to help and do our part. AMAZING!!

So just an hour ago, I get the most amazing news, that I have received since before Nov 10, when I lost my job, etc, etc. I am getting a huge amount of money back on my taxes and when I say huge, I mean huge, like enough to pay off all my credit cards, pay off everything except my house and car, and still have money in the BANK!! As I sit here crying and thanking GOD, this just goes to show that there is light at the end of the tunnel!! When you have nothing left to give and you do it anyway, and less than an hour later, you are blessed with enough to live on for months, it's more than a BLESSING!! It's a MIRACLE!! So thank you, THANK YOU for all of you who have prayed and taken your time to pray for us! You will never know how much it means!!


Krissi said...

How amazing is the God we serve? I am so excited for you. I know that things will go great with Tay tomorrow, please be sure to post so that we will all know how things go! We love you and will be keeping you both in our prayers!!

Toni said...

Ronda that is absolutely wonderful. I am so happy for you! God is good!

Sissy said...

isn't it amazing how that whole "the Lord will provide" stuff really works out? I'm glad to hear you have some good news out of all the suckiness.