Back to Work...

As I am back to work tomorrow, the posting shall eventually resume and I will eventually catch up....Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and will have a blessed New Year to Come!!

Icicles Giggles

So one day last week, last something, who knows, it has all ran together in it's mass chaos, we had some ice and school was closed, yeah for Tay, not so much for me, lol. We had fun nonetheless and took a few pics to show...

Another Bump in the Road/A Day with the Giggles...

I got a phone call from B, stating that his aunt had passed away. This all happened very suddenly, and the entire family was very shocked by this, especially B, as he had just seen her a few days before, laughing and acting silly. I didn't know what words to say or how to say them to make him feel better. And to make matters worse, the funeral that he was to be a pallbearer in was on his 35th birthday. Not to make for a great day, eh? Needless to say the day got worse then better, and I tried my dangest to make up for it. When all this had happened, I offered to help with the kids to make life easier on the family because frankly, I didn't know what else to do. So here are some crazy pics from the day with me and the girls(B's nieces)....that I have come to love....We all had a blast and I hated to see them go...no pics of Tay noted, as she was at her daddy's. Aren't they all just the cutest??

Thrill Hill, Part 2

For those of you that know, my love life has taken a drastic turn lately, and much to my avail, who knows what will come of all that!! After much talking, and me trying to sort things out in my head, this is the only thing that I can come up with....Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus....and here's the perfect picture that explains that....still laughing...I've decided it's all a game, and no matter how well I don't like to play them, one eventually ends up putting some cards in...whether we win or lose is still up for debate...but here's a sidenote for ya, "Don't play games with a girl who can play em' better!!"

All joking aside, we're talking and being civil, lol. For now, huh?

(I decided not to post the pic, he may try to kill me, huh?) Maybe later....

Thrill Hill, Part 1

So life has been one hell of a roller coaster ride since my last post. I haven't exactly felt bloggy friendly here lately, so sue me, mmm, k!! So here we go...off the first hill....

Our church does the yearly production of Polar Express at CMA, and while this is an awesome experience and truly a joy to everyone involved and everyone who comes to watch, it is very, well, draining to say the least. We had four showings, throughout the weekend, and for anyone who doesn't know, it takes at least 100 people or more to pull this shin~dig off!! This was however, the last year of Polar Express as they are working on something new for 2009!

Taylor did have a part in this, she was in the King's Entourage, pics to follow. Of course, she ate it up and loved every minute of it, til she finally fell over Sunday night with exhaustion, as everyone else did too!!

Tay's Second Grade Choir Musical

Taylor is in the Second Grade Choir and she is very proud of this. Last Thursday was her musical, and as almost all the pictures turned out really dark, this is the only one that really turned out good. They all did a really good job and sang their little heart's out!! It was a packed house!

Wordless Wednesday (2 hours early)

Jingle All The Way

Last night was the Second Grade Musical, and as much as the following pictures look less than angelic, they are anything but. Taylor was the GPS module and here are some pics. She also has her Second Grade Choir Musical on Thursday, as I will surely post some more pics. Now that I think of it, I get the "bad momma" award this week. I have taken no pics of Gymnastics, nor basketball, what is wrong with me??

"The Mac Kids Christmas Party"

The McPherson's put on an annual Christmas party for the kiddos. This was the kiddos party and our first year, we truly enjoyed it! Not only did we have alot of fun, but I got alot of neat Christmas ideas for next year! The kids ate cookies, snacks, and Daddy Mac made some awesome punch for everyone! The kids sang karaoke, did the limbo, some line dancing, and lastly played "dirty santa" with hats/tobaggans!! Tay was very impressed that no one stole her hat!

Seek First....

Some of you are aware of the utter dissarray that my life has been in for the last month. I feel as though I have been on a roller coaster, ups and downs, blessings, Satan attacking, and personally I am fed up with him! I just want to thank everyone who has called, texted, emailed, and showed concern, your support truly means alot, and I cannot say thank you enough for the way you all have tried to cheer me up and boost my confidence.

And Krissi, she posted a blog for prayers for us, and just knowing that there are people out there praying for us that don't even know us, as well as those who do, is very so thoughtful, touching, brings tears to my eyes and joy to my heart.

I still feel slightly numb from the intensity of it all, but it too shall pass. I just pray that I can sleep tonight, as that has been when I lie awake and dwell, toss and turn and get five minutes here and there only to wake up every hour or less.

This particular passage from Matthew, chapter 6, has been my saving grace through all of this...read to me by Amy Brewer at the midst of all the chaos...

...Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, or what you will wear. Is not life more important than food and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

And last but not least....But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I am progressing, because I am not as tearful as I was, lol, or is it because there's nothing left to cry. I'm going with the progress!

Wild Imaginations

Thanks to Krissi and Caleb's blue house story, it reminded me of this more than hilarious moment of Tay's past!

When she was about 3, she had the most wild and vivid imagination, actually she drove me nuts with it, but psychologists say that kids with these kinds of imagination will be super smart. Ok, I'm down with that, so let her rip, right? Wrong, I believe that DHS almost got called on this day...

One particular winter day in Goody's, I was Christmas shopping and they have those racks in the kid section with pillows, blankets, etc. on them. I was on the other side of the rack from Tay, looking at clothes, etc., but, I could hear her talking and babbling like she always did, so I thought nothing of it, till we went to leave that section. I walked around the rack and she had made the most extravagant fence and housing out of everything on this rack. My mouth dropped open and immediately I told her that we had to get it cleaned up and put back like it was! Her response was, but mom, this is my benny pig house. (Benny pigs are really guinea pigs, but she's 3, and they have them at her daycare, so she calls them her benny pigs).

Me: Taylor hunny, we have to pick this up.

Tay: Ok, but just let me get all my benny pigs out first.

Me: Ok, but let's hurry!

Tay: Ok, mom, I think I got them all.

Me: Good, then let's put you back in the buggy and let's go before we draw even more attention to ourselves.

Tay: (As I am pushing her away in the buggy) screams at the top of her lungs, MOMMA, you forgot one, you have to go back and get him!!

Me: Ok, where is he?

Tay: He's over there hiding by the rack.

Me: (I walk over to where I think he is and attempt to get him), and attempt to scoop up this imaginary benny pig in my arms.

Tay: (Holds out her hands to get him from me, and says, Oh Momma, thank goodness you got him, we almost left him here without his family!)

Me: Thank god that's over, as I am pushing the buggy away and look to my left, and what do you know, there stands the manager ever so intently watching us, I just about died right there, but all I could stammer out, was, "You know, kids with wild imaginations are super smart, right?" He looked at me, like, Yeah right, lady, you have lost your damn mind and your kid too!!

Needless to say, we hightailed it out of there!!

And the other story that is ever so crazy....we have friends with a son named Zion, and Tay always liked him because his knickname was "Handsome", and it fit! Well, she informed me one day that Zion lived under my bed, so on a daily basis we would have to check on him, take him food and water, etc. She would talk to him like he was sitting right there next to her. Thank God she was only 3, or I might have had her committed!!

Oh, the things our children make us endure! I try to tell myself everyday that IT IS worth it, right??

Heartwarming and Tearful

I admit that I watch more tv in the winter than the normal person should, but when I saw the advertisements for the new show, "The Secret Millionaire"...I was a bit skeptical! But after watching its premiere tonight, I absolutely fell in love with it! We need more of these kind of reality shows that help people who are far less fortunate than any of us. I just love Extreme Makeover and cry like a baby sometimes because it's so heartwarming! Well, tonight, I cried like a baby, because Greg & Cole (millionaires from CA) gave a family whose young daughter has bone cancer $50 grand! They don't have insurance and are on the verge of losing their jobs, house, everything! I totally think we should all do our part to pay it forward, and even more so if you are blooming with millions! It's a wonderful feeling to give or help others and this is an incredible way to help others that are truly deserving! You should all watch it at least once if you didn't tonight...

Misc rantings....

So, to my previous blog about huntin, he got a deer on Sunday, his dogs ran it right through the yard, talk about not having to work for it! And I reaped the benefits, lol! Thank you, Lord, perhaps now I will survive. If I can only make it another week??

Yesterday I went and saw several friends/family around the community and took them Christmas cards and tins with samplings of all the homemade Christmas candy that Tay and I made on Sunday. They just loved it. And frankly, I was ready to see it go, as in 24 hours, more than 5# was added to my backside from just looking at it! Ok, ok....I did some sampling for myself, too! You caught me!! But how can one resist, it's good stuff!

Today I will be wrapping all the presents and putting them under the tree, if the cat doesn't kill the tree first or me kill her first. She has already broke a limb off of it! If she wasn't worth her weight in gold, said Angel cat would have found a new home elsewhere. When I mentioned this to Brian, he said, but it's her first Christmas, you can't punish her! The hell I can't, it was you making my life miserable, now its the friggin cat!! Any suggestions or ideas to keep the cat outta the dang tree??

So, yes, I think I am ready to go back to work, but then again, maybe not, I'm enjoying being ahead and on top of things right now.....as this changes every 5 minutes!!

Here's the latest pic to my album....talk about eating it up, Tay is in love with Santa, my, my, how her heart will ache when she finds out the devastating truth. When we were in Texarkana last week, she sat on his lap for at least 10 minutes just talking it up with him. I refused to buy the $25 pictures because she is 7, and well, frankly, she looks 10, and I get a few not so nice looks every time I let her go through this charade! So we are at Wally World on Sunday, and guess who is there? Yup, you guessed it, Santa, so she just had to go and sit in his lap once more, and every time she adds something to the list. Does this kid not know that I(Santa) is jobless and the shopping is done, and she is getting nothing else!! Please, someone explain this to her, as she is NOT getting it!! Oh, and the best part...after she got her pic taken and we were walking away, she said, momma, did you hear what Santa said, He said, "I look cute, yep, I'm cute cause Santa said!"

Oh BTW, who cares if the Campbells and Goldfish Ads are on the pic, it was FREE!! And these days, I'm all about that!!

For the love of God....

Everyone knows that it's deer season and thank goodness it is almost over! I am forbidden to say anything about my hunny's huntin! But man, is it hard? And what makes it worse, is a month ago, he popped off and said, oh, I can goof off and kill more than Jared or dad, and don't worry, I'll fill your freezer full!! My, how the tides have turned! He certifiably jinxed hisself is what he did, he killed a doe with his bow, got nothing with his muzzleloader and still nothing during rifle season. However, the other night, he did bring home some roadkill, lol! Don't ask! Ask me how I know all this, because it is making my life miserable, that's why!! Season ends tomorrow in Zone 11, blah, blah, and next Sunday in Zone such and such!! So basically he told me tonight that if I could put up with it another week, I would have him back, lol. Not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. He says that not killing anything doesn't bother him, and I told him that he was going to hell for lying! So he finally admitted it, and I told him that whether or not he knew it, he was grumpy and bitter, and I was ready to have my sweetness back.

Then he informs me that the month of April is turkey season and well, if I thought he was MIA during November, I haven't seen anything yet! Oh boy, I can't wait! At least theres almost 6 months between them. This huntin season crap is like mens very own PMS month...and they say we get grumpy, doubt it!

So yall, please pray for my sanity and let that man kill something tomorrow, whether it have horns or not! Otherwise I may inevitably go stark raving mad!

Oh and BTW, just in case anyone else is reading this, in my defense, I don't mind the huntin, it's the not killing anything that makes my life miserable, because it makes him miserable whether he admits it or NOT!! Anyone else have these issues at home?

Black Friday Madness

So against my better judgement I decided to go and show my face at this madness they call Black Friday. Now I know exactly why it's called Black Friday, Raving Lunatic Day would be more like it. OMG, I have never seen so many people packed into Wally World ever in my life. I mean, if the place was to blow, the entire populus of Polk County was there..Bye, Bye World!

Anyways, so this year, unlike other years, they let people in the doors, they just had everything black taped and I do mean, black taped, garbage bagged up, not even a toddler with a pair of scissors could get in there! People were lined up next to their most prized item of choice and then would attempt to get to the next item of choice, well, that was merely IMPOSSIBLE. They even had a countdown at 5 am..so people could start ripping and tearing the bagged items. I had more than my fair share of getting the buggy rammed in my ankles, feet, back, butt and frankly it was more than enough for me. Hell, you couldn't see peoples feet, or anything else for that matter. It looked like WWII went off in there, only with people. I tried to be polite and say excuse me, sorry, may I please get through, but by the end, it is totally a lost cause and you pray that no one is gonna take you out and attempt to end your life over something so stupid. But with me being 7 feet tall and bulletproof, I have yet to have that happen, not even today.

I spoke with someone who had been there since 2:30 am, I mean, really people, is anything out there worth getting up at 2 am and standing in line for 2 1/2 hours, I think not. Not in my book anyways. I was there at 5 am and don't think the chickens had even started crowing yet! However, I would like to mention that I was able to get everything that I wanted from the madness and I didn't get up at 2 am, heck I didn't even go to bed at all, but we aren't even gonna talk about that here, LOL. (I'll just say that it was totally worth it, you get the picture, right)?

So now I can say that all of my shopping is totally done, praise GOD! Now, in my raging insanity, I have 3 kids running around my feet since coming home from the said madness. I think I must have forgotten that I have had Zero hours of sleep when I agreed to watch the kids so my mom and sister could go shopping. Yikes, and to think I actually considered having another one in the future. Wow, what a dream!! NOT!!

Blessings from Above...

Here I sit, in bloggy world while everything I have slaved for this morning in the kitchen may be on fire and black by now, lol! I am responsible for all of the pies, just to name a few, sweet potatoe pecan (yummy if I do say so myself) apple, pumpkin, chocolate turtle and last but not least peanut butter pie, oh yum!! Oh yeah, I also am making homemade yeast rolls, those big fluffy ones that melt in your mouth, yall just pray that I don't screw those up!!

And for those of you that know the details of my life and the shenanigans that it encompasses, yesterday was a very good day. I got approved for my unemployment and got another large cash flow that came in, so Thank You, Lord for those wonderful blessings, everything is going to be ok. It never ceases to amaze me how he follows through so well and I am well, so far from perfect. But I give Him all the glory.

Just wanted to wish you all a very blessed day with family and friends, and that we can truly open our eyes and our hearts and cherish all the wonderful gifts that we have received and give thanks to the One who has provided so much! Happy Happy Thanksgiving to you all!!

Chillin with my gnomies....

I admit I haven't read the books yet, keyword yet, see end of blog. I have, however, seen all the previews and my addict friends go absolutely apeshit!! One of my addict friends invited me to go eat, drink, be merry and go see Twilight on it's Premiere Friday night, and that's exactly what we did.

Six of us went to eat at On the Border which is just across the street from the theater. Shall we say that we were obnoxious, drunken beligerent fools that made quite a scene at not only the restaurant but also the theater. I have to admit that it was fun, I truly needed it and would do it again. See all the pics to follow....This was Amanda's wonderful park job on the curb, before we started consuming!

So being that I saw the movie and it was interesting and intrigues me...I admit that on the way home, I stopped at B&N and bought 2 of the books....which I have already started reading. Heck, even Tay has become fascinated with them, and that indeedy is scaring me!!

And last but not least...priceless

Red Faced and Angry as Hell.....

So now that you all now that I lost me job due to something ever so stupid. Today...I went up to my previous office the right way, asked to speak to said previous boss, and the secretary came back and said that I needed to contact human resources.. I looked at her and said, you tell her to come out and talk to me because HR will not return my calls. So eventually the previous boss came out and I asked her to fill out an employment verification form so that I can get my OK license. She refused and said that she can't. My response, can't or won't?? She said, they(being HR) told her that she can't do anything for me. I said, this paper isn't for my unemployment, me being shit~canned or anything to do with anything, other than the fact that I worked there and worked greater than 520 hours in the last 2 years. She still refused. I told her that she cannot keep me from getting another job! At this point, I am getting furious, (and I even took Tay with me as a character witness), so if needed she could tell the truth about what took place. So I told the boss that I would be back if HR didn't return my calls again, and she informed me not to bother, that I was never welcome there and she would call the police and have me escorted off the premises. I said, for what, asking questions?? Go ahead, call them, what can they do? She then said, if you don't leave now, I will call them and have you taken away! I couldn't help but laugh out loud and say, really, what exactly would they be hauling me off for, as I have done NOTHING wrong. My nursing license IS NOT in jeopardy, I did not steal anything from this company, etc. She's making such a scene, and I was getting madder by the minute, so I laughed some more, and said "THIS IS A JOKE" and walked out the door. If flames could have emploded from my body, this would have been the day for it.

So then, we come home and I asked Tay if she had any homework, she said no. I was looking through her papers from yesterday and their was homework papers in big bold letters that was never completed or turned in. I took it to her and said, what is this? She said, I didn't know about it. I said, it's your responsibility to know about it. You are 7 years old and in the 2nd grade. This is not KINDERGARTEN anymore! I was so mad that she lied to me last night about not having any homework. So I tell her to sit down and do the homework right now. She does so and brings it to me so I can check it. I checked it and one was wrong...she had put 65-5, was 50, I told her it was incorrect and to go fix it. She then started arguing with me about the validity of the question and that it was not wrong. I threatened to get the fly swatter and beat her with it if she did not go sit down and fix the problem. After she sits down, she informs me of this, Oh, Mom, BTW, I had to sit in class during the last recess and do my homework that I didn't turn in this morning. Really, I said, fuming by now!! Thats funny, I so remember asking you earlier when I picked you up from school about your day, and your responce was that you had a great day, no problems, no getting in trouble, and so on. My, my, how this so turned out to be a Xanax Martini day! And it's only 5:00!! So then, Brian walks in...and said, wow, your face is very red......Really, no way, I would have never guessed after the events that have taken place in the last hour. Needless to say, I was already in the process of having a cold one, yes, I certifiably fell off the rocker. I still feel like I could explode into a million tiny little pieces. So Amanda, if I make it in one piece tomorrow, I will no doubt drink myself into oblivion!! Ok, maybe not quite oblivion!!

Making use of my time

Most of you do not know, but I actually lost my job a week ago today. My, my, how good I am at hiding things. Sorry guys, don't take it personal. I went through the normal range of emotions, from being in denial the first day, to weepy sad the next, then ANGER, yes, I admit I was very angry, and vowed that if I ever saw that crazy woman in a dark alley that I would not be responsible for my actions. However, a week has passed and I have decided to make the most of it.

For starters I have scrubbed, cleaned out closets and even painted. But that didn't make me feel very resourceful, heck I even went with Brian last week and set some propane tanks. That was his way of trying to get me outta the house so I don't get depressed. Because any of you that know me, know that I can't sit still for very long. LOL

So when Tay asked if we were going to church yesterday, my reply was, YES, HEAVENS YES!! Go get ready. I'm not one that blasts my faith on other people, but we do go to church, a very good one in fact, and I have wanted for some time to be more involved and get to know those people better. But time has been something that I haven't had much of, till recently. I feel that I have so fallen away from the *right path* if that makes sense to any of you. So yesterday we spent almost all day at church, and they made me feel so much better. Heck, a girl that I have known for years but haven't really seen much, came up to me, and said, Hunny, something is wrong, would you like to talk about it? I poured out my heart, boo-hooed and she offered to do anything to help with Tay and it was wow, what a relief. Imagine me, being very independent, stubborn and bull-headed enough as to not ever ask for help. So it was a real shocker to me when she said, whatever it takes, we'll get you through this. Heck, my family hasn't even said that! And her situation isn't just a whole lot better than mine. So kudos to her for being there for me!

Then our church has what is called "Lifegroups", where a few families get together and talk, study a topic, share tears, fears and just really get to know these other families. Tay and I went last night, where my newfound friend and her family were there also. It was great, just to share with other people and for them to expect nothing from you and give you a shoulder to cry on and not judge you. There are lots of kids, so they all run around and play and have a little lesson of their own. Another girl there also had the same experience as me last week and lost her job. It's scary to know that it's coming for alot of people. I offered to help with our upcoming Christmas play and whatever else they might need. Hopefully it will make me feel resourceful! But I feel better today knowing that I am going to get to know all of these people better and that they are right down the street if I need them. I'll be the first to admit that I need more of Jesus in my life and He will see that I am fulfilled in my life. Thank you Jesus for this opportunity to just dance with you!!

Fall Pics as Promised....

Here are the fall pics that I promised. I love and adore them, however the pic of just me, I'm not sure whether I like it or not. I love the pic and the background but the look on my face is well, almost disturbing to say the least! Oh, and I did this brilliant thing of ordering all my pics online at Kodak Gallery and they are now officially on my sh*t list. They sent me one pic, yes one out of over 75 that I ordered. And in very small print at the bottom of the invoice it reads, (Your order may be shipped in multiple shipments). Oh boy, just what I wanted to hear, I may have to wait til tomorrow, or friggin next week to get the other 74!! Shouldn't there be a law against torment when you are paying good money for something?? To that I say, WTF??